"It is Christmas..."

It is Christmas everytime you let God love others through you...

yes! it is Christmas everytime you smile at your brother and offer him your hand.

Mother Theresa, 1910-1997

Christmas Is a Time for Love and Fun......

Christmas is a time for love and fun,

A time to reshape souls and roots and skies,

A time to give your heart to everyone

Freely, like a rich and lavish sun,

Like a burning star to those whose lonely sighs

Show need of such a time for love and fun.

For children first, whose pain is never done,

Whose bright white fire of anguish never dies,

It's time to give your heart to every one,

That not one angel fall, to hatred won

For lack of ears to listen to her cries,

Or arms to carry him towards love and fun,

Or friends to care what happens on the run

o adult life, where joy or sadness lies.

It's time to give your heart to everyone,

For God loves all, and turns His back on none,

Good or twisted, ignorant or wise.

Christmas is a time for love and fun,

A time to give your heart to everyone.

简单的爱

最近看了一部韩剧，剧中描述着两位身份悬殊的男女，如何排除万难，最终成为大家祝福的一对恋人。

很喜欢里头的一句话：

“天上的星星 和地上的草
天和地 离得遥不可及的两个人
终于发现了他们之间存在的那个世界”

世间的繁荣与进步拉开了人与人之间的距离，也造成了所谓的“身份等级”。

我们是否能够为了那单纯的爱，而战胜世俗的眼光和评论呢？

喜乐的心

雨过天晴了！感觉很好！

谢谢大家在这段期间给于我的关心和鼓励。

从这一次的打击中，我学会了“容忍”的功课。

我已全副武装，要迈开脚步向前行了。。。

感谢上帝的庇佑，让我成为一个更刚强的基督徒。。。to walk by faith, and not by sight.

好假

过去两天过得好没意义，甚至活的很假

怎么的假法？就是假装在听但其实并没有在用心听

嘴巴在笑，但其实是在伪装，在假笑

我想要走出这虚拟世界。。。

恳求神赐我力量，重获愉快的心灵

有气没力。。。或是。。。有心无力

今天时间过得挺快的。。。

虽然从早到晚都一直在路上奔跑，

但总觉得自己好像是行尸走肉般，

不清楚我到底在做些什么。

全身酸痛，没精神。。。

是累的关系吗？还是要感冒了？

无助

你是否试过被人冤枉而无法自辩的感觉吗?

今天的我又再次经历这种状况。

好失望。。。特别当对方是自己很亲的人。

心情落到了谷底。。。

觉得好累。。。好累。。。

我感觉到了，你呢？

今天难得有机会在家里偷闲。。。看看电视，打打游戏。

感谢上帝的带领，小洁我有惊无险地在工作岗位上了三个星期的工，一切都还挺顺利的。

我也要特别感谢支持我与常常为我代祷的兄弟姐妹们，特别是我的小组。

我再次坦然无怯地回到神的面前
你我之间的距离也在不知不觉中连接起来
谢谢你们的关心和眷顾！

呼呼大睡…

过去几天总觉得很容易累，

可能是因为太久没有过那种上班族的生活，

更何况要到处跑，一下子适应不过来。

每天晚上回到家就趴在床上呼呼入睡了。。。

真想尽快进入状况，应付迎面而来的挑战。。。

天父啊！

求你赐给我聪明智慧，让我在岗位上能帮助到需要帮助的人，将一切荣耀都归于你！

Direct or Don’t Direct?....

Saw my field supervisor this morning. We had a wonderful discussion on case management and social work. For social workers, focus is placed on ensuring that the client’s interest is placed as first priority and that confidentiality of the client should not be compromised at anytime. However, case management in the context that I’m working in may not allow us to practice such. Given the uniqueness of the clients and the circumstances they are in, it is often difficult to ascertain which course of action is for the best interests of the clients. When and where do we draw the line? Or can we draw a line? especially when these clients are not in any position to ascertain what’s right and wrong, and what’s good and bad. If they are unable to tackle fundamental issues of human survival, can the clients then be empowered or make an informed decision on their future path?

Oh well….this goes on and on……

Feeling dryness and pain at the throat area, hope I will not be coming down with a sore throat...

Tiring…engine warming up…

Started my internship with my previous employer as a case manager for job retention this week. These past 3 days had been pretty interesting and exciting (erm…minus the reading part). As I am new on the job, I get to follow my mentor around and get to see for myself how cases were being managed. Each client has his own set of problems to start with, and if expectations of both the employers and clients are not managed effectively, this collaboration will be an unsuccessful one from the beginning. The case manager thus needs to apply a balancing act at all times to ensure that it’s a win-win situation for both parties.

There’s so much to learn and I’m enjoying every moment of it. Thank God for blessing me such a wonderful mentor and lovely colleagues to work with.

The past 14 months....

Time really flies…it felt as though it was just yesterday that I decided to take a break from work and go back to school. Just as I’m about to end my slow and lazy student life and embark on a new chapter in my life, it was timely for one of my favourite past-time – self-reflection! Haha!

Have been thinking about what I have achieved in terms of growth in the following areas: personality & character, spirituality, family ties, friendship etc...hmmm....

The past 14 months had been a wonderful and memorable experience for me. Besides finding myself buried under mountains of readings, rushing and meeting deadlines for assignments, and preparing for exams, I managed to find time to do some voluntary work, something that I have always wanted to do but never really got to do it due to work commitments (sounds like more excuses ya…I agree too). I contributed my few cents worth of experience and knowledge in the aftercare sector to a number of VWOs that deals mainly with youths and youth at risk. It was a refreshing and rewarding encounter for me as I learned how to communicate with youths, and slowly figured out why youths chose to behave the way they do. I could still recall the moment that I broke down in tears when one of the youths came up to me on the last day of the programme. She whispered a thank you into my ear, gave me a hug and a small peck on my cheek. It was worth all the time and effort to know that they now know that someone does care for them and that they learn how to express their thoughts and emotions in a positive manner. Nothing beats seeing the joy on their faces and the twinkle in their eyes. 说着说着。。。鼻子酸酸的。。。哎哟！我是水做的吗？

I am grateful to God for all these meaningful memories, and that during my short stay on earth, I’m able to use the gift given to me to make a difference to the lives of others.

Time to go to bed…will share more tomorrow…all the best!

Worship Dynamics

Monday was song presentation day again for my vocal course at Believer Music. This time round it's more challenging than before as each of us not only has to present an individual song, we also had to do a group song which includes the elements of expression work, worship style, creative delivery of song and harmony parts. Me and my 2 classmates had loads of fun preparing for the group song. I really thank God for such wonderful and lovely people in my life.

This is the song I picked for individual presentation, a nice and beautiful song that talks about God's love for us. I shared with the class about God's love, and He will never forsake us, He is there even in our darkest days. This is a reminder to me that whenever we are in despair or lack directions in our lives, we can always turn to God and submit our concerns to Him.



This is the group presentation song. A nice and hopeful song, that is uplifting, energetic, declarative and jubilant.

活动胫骨

昨天没有声乐课因为教练到了沙巴去做短宣，

加上是公共假期，所以我跟妹妹决定动动胫骨，

到球场上去打打我的最爱 - 羽球。爸爸也有参与哦!

可能是太久没打的关系，今天的我觉得右边肌肉非常紧绷，

总被自己缓慢的动作弄得啼笑皆非。

打完了球后，真希望能像以前一样，每星期都打一次。

有机会的话，能约约 Grace, Pearlyn and Addy for a game…heh…sounds fun!

Uncle Wong & small jie jie in action!

Our orange flavoured isotonic drinks...

今天打了第二只预防针，还是非常的痛 – 难道自己的忍痛能力降低了?

右手臂肌肉痛，左手臂因打针痛… 哎哟威啊!

Where God leads, He will provide!

I shared with the worship team during the prayer meeting today about my interesting quest for a placement agency as part of my academic syllabus. As many are aware, my plan was to look for an agency where I can be exposed to working with a new clientele, preferably youths. However, over the past 3 months, I slowly began to realise that my plans may not be the one that God has for me. Indeed, I have experienced numerous disappointments and doors kept closing on me, especially at places that I thought I could easily apply for placement with ease with my experience. In the past, I would fight or do what I can to get what I want. But this time round, I chose to handle this slow and painful process in a manner that was totally different from the past. I chose not to rush into getting what I want, but to commit my concerns to God and prayed that He showed me the way. Wherever He wants me to be, I will go.

Even though to date, I have yet to totally accept the reality that I’m sent back to the company which I left slightly more than a year ago, but I know that there’s a reason behind Him getting me out of there and now, back again. I may not have the answer now (even though I really dying to know why), but I know that I need not be afraid of what is to come, as He will be with me every single step I take as where God leads, He will provide!

I’m looking forward to this new chapter in my life. I know that it will not be easy, but more importantly, I know that since this is the place that God wants me to be, I can go to work everyday with peace in my heart :)

近期的我。。。

好久没写日记了。。。

直到一位好友问我最近在忙些什么，顿时的我差点答不出来。。。

回想过去的几个星期，我还过满挺充实的。

除了生了一场病，赶作业和温习课业以外，小洁也开始在教会侍奉。

从前的我没想过会有那么一天，但靠着神的带领和恩典，我踏出了第一步。

虽然刚开始时有些许战战兢兢，但每次在敬拜当中都能感觉到神的同在，

心中的喜悦和平安总让我再次得力，克服了我心中的恐惧与不安，

也让我重获勇气面对生活中的种种挑战。

Worship is…our response, both personal and corporate, to God –
for who He is!
and what He has done!
expressed in and by the things we say
and the way we live.

痛痛。。。还是痛

小洁的身上多了三处针孔的痕迹。。。

好痛啊！

一处是因为打一支预防针而造成的。

说真的，即使护士小姐警告过我打这支针时会很痛… 我也做好了心理准备… 但是…

当护士把那支针的药剂打进我手臂时，我还真想用力地呐喊‘痛啊’!

可是，超爱面子的我就是不能让别人知道。。。所以我忍!!!

我的忍工还不错哦~~哈哈!

另外两处的痕迹嘛… 是因为护士小姐找不着我细小的血管而成的…

如今还瘀清了… 嗨~~

所以大家要好好照顾自己，千万不可以生病哦! 抽血可是件痛苦的事啊 !

The Voice of Light

I’ve commenced my third module of training to become a worship vocalist. The theme for this module is on The Voice of Light, which is to go beyond being equipped with the music skills, and be on a mission to shine for God in the midst of this dark world.

Two topics were covered this week, and both left deep impact on me and really set me thinking.

The first was on The Voice of Humility, where we shared about the challenges of leaving our pride behind and the need to humble ourselves before God.

The second topic was on A Voice That Abides.
The scripture covered for this topic is taken from John 15:9-10

Just as the Father has loved Me,
I have also loved you; abide in My love.
“If you keep My commandments,
you will abide in My love;
just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.

What does the word ‘abide’ means to you? The definition of this word simply means to continue, dwell, endure, be present, remain etc

It was only when my coach replaced the word in the scripture when I finally read this scripture with a different perspective:

Just as the Father has loved Me,
I have also loved you; dwell in My love.
“If you keep My commandments,
you will remain in My love;
just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and not stray away from His love.

Let’s remember what it means to obey God and why we should do so. For “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it” Luke 11:28

Giver or Taker?

Today I was reading an email from my coach of a leadership programme that I signed up for more than 2 years ago. She was sharing with me and my course mates on how a friend of hers had made an impact on her life.

Here’s an excerpt from her email:

Someone has suggested that years from now we’ll be the same except for the books we read and the people we meet. We don’t read books as we once did – thanks to the Internet, cable TV and myriad other forms of communication. However, the idea that our lives are greatly influenced by the people who cross our paths still holds true.

Throughout our tenure on earth, dozens – perhaps even hundreds – of people leave their imprint on our lives. I can think of family members, teachers, friends, pastors, bosses and coworkers that each has touched my life in unique, invaluable ways. They have helped in molding and shaping me into the person I have become.Ultimately, I believe this is the measure of our lives – our legacy. It’s not about the money we earn, stuff we collect, titles we hold, or awards we win. It’s about making a difference. Even if we can influence just one life in a positive way, our own lives have significance and meaning.

Proverbs 27:17 tells us, “As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.” Whose life is better today because of knowing you?

Her short and simple sharing through email has once again reminded me of what I shared with someone dear over tea last Sunday, that I make a conscious effort to ensure that I keep in contact with my friends or try to get to know them better so as to love and appreciate them for who they are, and to provide support if the need arises.

Many a times we take for granted what we have or is given to us, but how often do we question ourselves what we have done in return?

My coach and my course mates are individuals who have impacted my life, and I hope to pay it forward, to reach out to as many people as I can.

So....are you a taker or a giver?

My course mates from the leadership programme-LP64

有爱的人是最富有的!

今天从傍晚开始就一直在收看台湾现场直播的赈灾晚会节目“把爱传出去”。

在看的当儿感触满多的。

感激的是很庆幸自己生长在新加坡这块土地上, 优越的地理位置让我们不用饱受天灾的破害。

但更感动的是人间是充满温情的!

虽然大家都处于经济危机的时代,但在助遇难的人一臂之力时总是不遗余力的,全都是为了简单的一个字“爱”。

有爱的人是最富有的!

其中有一组艺人唱了这首歌 “祈祷”
歌中的词是这样写的。。。

让我们敲希望的钟啊,多少祈祷在心中;
让大家看不到失败,叫成功永远在.
让地球忘记了转动啊,四季少了夏秋冬;
让宇宙关不了天窗,叫太阳不西沉.
让欢喜代替了哀愁啊,微笑不会再害羞;
让时光懂得去倒流,叫青春不开溜;
让贫穷开始去逃亡啊,快乐健康留四方;
让世界找不到黑暗,幸福像花开放.
让我们敲希望的钟啊,多少祈祷在心中;
让大家看不到失败,叫成功永远在.
让大家看不到失败,叫成功永远在.

愿上帝亲自安抚灾民,给于他们盼望。。。也赐福于那些救灾英雄们!

让我们心中的爱成为我们做任何事的原动力吧！

左胸口的痛

过去几天的心情都不是很好。

胸口总觉得闷闷的。。。

本以为自己能够很潇洒，拿得起，放得下。

但事实并非如此简单。一直以来，我都在寻求一个答案。

上帝也终于给了我一个明确的答复。

虽然觉有些许的失落，但我深信上帝必定有他的安排，而我的任务就是得耐心等待。

神关起一扇门，他必开一条新路
不疑惑，不软弱，我心仍要赞美
赏赐的在于你，收取的你必代替
神旨意不能拦阻，我心仍要赞美

洁。。。不要再为今天的挫折而生自己的气了!

收拾好心情，重新出发吧!

你一定行的!

神啊! 求赐我一刻刚强壮胆的心吧!

不要放弃，满有能力！

今天早晨的天气好好哦！

不但能看到蓝天白云，也能被小鸟的啼叫声叫醒。

这何尝不是一件幸福的事。

很感激天父再一次给我机会目睹新的一天的诞生。

我深信每个人活在这世上，不是必然的，而是一份恩典。

在过去的几天里，我活的十分充实和精彩。

我也再次肯定我选择的路是对的。

虽然那不是条康庄大道，但它是个充满恩典的路，充满着幸福的生命。

只要凭着从神而来的力量，再大的考验，我都能得胜有余。

我不渴望一步登天，而是要一步一脚印踏出神放在我心中的蓝图和希望。

我愿如游牧师所说的，像一根蜡烛般，点燃自己的生命，也点燃在我身边的每个生命。

用我心中的那份希望，带给这黑暗的世界一丝的亮光和盼望。

如果你与我有同感，就开始动起来吧!

神也在上星期带领赞美之泉敬拜团队 Stream of Praise 到我国巡回。

我参与了三场聚会。

无论上课上得多累，我还是拼了老命赶到聚会地点，放下一切顾虑，大声地敬拜，跳起来!

那心中的平安与渴望是非笔墨能形容的。

当儿，我仿佛遇到了自己，就如一个小孩跑到父母的怀中，渴慕他们疼惜和爱她一样，单单地仰望和依靠。

每次参加赞美之泉的敬拜，我都会被他们的分享深深地感动，就如一个火把，重新点燃我心中的火种，重新得力!

今年赞美之泉诗歌专辑的主题是“不要放弃，满有能力”

我很喜欢这个主题。

在这动荡不安的时期，我们不必沮丧。

只要深信应着神，我的生命是充满能力的!

无论我将遇到什么挑战，我都会继续敬拜。。。

因为敬拜能让我得着能力!

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一步又一步 这是恩典之路
你爱 你手 将我紧紧抓住
一步又一步 这是盼望之路
你爱 你手 牵引我走这人生路

歌词取自赞美之泉“不要放弃, 满有能力” 专辑
歌名: 恩典之路

意外的惊喜

第二学期的声乐课程在昨天告一段落了。

蛮开心的，总算掌握了歌唱的基本功，成就感还算不错。。。呵呵!

但虽如此，歌唱技巧还有待进步啦! 看来前面的路还长着呢。。。

要多多练习，再接再厉哦!

昨天在等待上课时的一段对话中，愕然发现一位转班来上课的学生，竟是我小学老师！

天啊！我万万也没想到会在这种场合再次与她会面。

说真的，我对她的印象并不深刻，毕竟她并没有真正教过我。

但我还是非常感激上帝给我这个机会重遇和认识她，

这次不是以师生的身份，而是以同窗的身份。

第三学期，我来咯! 嘿嘿~~

欣赏。。。还是喜欢？

我是个超爱思考的人。

最近与一位好友的一次对话中勾起了一些埋葬已久的情感。

这也让我不自禁地问自己。。。

喜欢一个人就一定会欣赏他吗？

或欣赏一个人就必然会喜欢上他吗？

哎哟威呀！我可被混淆了！

我可以选择放弃吗？

还真矛盾呢。。。

我想我需要些时间整理情感。。。

日有所思，夜有所梦

我最讨厌做梦了。

别误会，我说的可不是发白日梦啦！

说真的，小洁我还挺喜欢做白日梦的，因为人因梦想而伟大呀~~ 嘻嘻~~

话说回来，做梦对我而言就是小脑袋瓜儿并没有好好的休息，而还在潜意识中慢慢地思考着。

前几晚都是如此，起身时都呆呆的。。。

虽然小洁爱旅游，但我不要再到梦乡一游啦！

温馨的画面~~~

今晚到了坐落在Cuppage Terrace 的Hibiki Japanese Buffet Restaurant 去吃晚餐，主要是为了庆祝Cyn姐的生日。

那里的食物还算不错，特别是它的ebi tempura, 有机会不妨去吃吃看。

可能是自助餐的关系，所以吃的超级饱的咯！差点儿就要吃爆小肚肚了！

哈哈！

这次的聚餐勾起了许多旧时的回忆，更让我回想起多年前在 Young Adult Ministry (YAM)里当任 exco的我，是如此地满有活力，如此积极地侍奉。

那时的我跑到哪儿去了？快快现身吧，我需要你哦！

姐~ 生日快乐！要身体健康，天天开心哦！愿主赐福与你!

最幸福的事

“幸福” 这两个字对每个人来说有着不同的见解。

有人认为幸福就是拥有一份高薪的工作，或是拥有大汽车大洋房。

简单来说，就是本地人俗称的5Cs。

近期，我觉得自己是超级幸福的。

以前的我把幸福视为自己要在各方面有卓越的表现，要人见人爱才行。结果只把好好的一个人搞得失去了自我。

如今放下了这一切自制的包袱，我愕然发现幸福其实是可以如此地简单和美丽。

例如：
- 妈妈特地为我准备的韭菜饺子；
- 受邀出席好友所参与的比赛；
- 出席好友的婚宴；
- 有机会与旧同事叙叙旧；
- 拥有一群知心和谈得来的朋友等等。。。

这可是数也数不清的呀！

很感激那些常在我身边支持和鼓励我的朋友们。若少了你们，就没有今天的洁了！

你呢？你对幸福的定义又是什么呢？

差点忘了，昨晚跟我在糖水cafe聊到夜深的三位美女们，Leen, BS & HK。。。

谢谢你们的分享和忠告。我听见了！

我知道下一步该怎么走了。

要常常保持联络哦！

爱死你们了！加油！

奥斯卡颁奖典礼

昨晚参加了一位好友的Oscar婚礼。

这位小姐啊，可真是个富有艺术细胞和创意的女生，把整个晚宴的主题搞得及生动又有趣。

在搞笑的当儿，也不缺一丝的温馨与感动。

当时的我，眼泪就快要标下来了啦!

有谁能救救我啊?!! 要忍住啊!

我真为她感到开心，找到了个好归属 :)

最后…也不忘了再次祝 Jovyn & Samuel 永结同心, 永浴爱河。

要幸福哦!!

纽西兰旅游记 Jun 09

前阵子跟家人到纽西兰的北岛去旅游了。

好久没跟家人一起出国旅行了，因此非常珍惜这次的机会。

想必太阳老公公就是知道我是个爱雨的人，所以我们一下飞机，雨就下个不停。
无论我们走到哪,雨伞就跟我们到那儿去。

哎哟威啊~~~

但每当我看到草原上或农场里的牛牛与羊羊，还是那道美丽的彩虹时，我都会不自经地笑，甚至激动得像天真的小孩一样。

其中给我留下最深刻的影像就是到农场住署的那天.那可是行程上特别的安排，让这些自小在城市生活的我们有机会体验农场的生活。

好心的我还在喂羊羊的过程中,被三只激动不已的羊攻击啊!

话说回来，这次的旅程非常轻松愉快，也让我有机会再次与大自然接触。

至今，我还是非常怀念那儿的天气与美食。有机会的话，希望日后能到南岛去看看。

我笑了 :)

近期总觉得自己很开心，慕名奇妙的开心。

就是那种简单的喜悦，会发自内心地笑出声来。

我想我把过去的一切放下了，我办到了!

想必这就是像一首赞美诗歌里的歌词一样:

大声唱哈利路亚 欢喜快乐吧 勇敢往前踏
大声唱哈利路亚 活出神放在 心中的蓝图和盼望

眼睛睁不开了！

累累累。。。好累啊！

每天对着密密麻麻的英文字母打情骂俏。。。还真有些。。闷啊！

再忍耐多两天！洁。。。你行的！

中毒与虚空的完美结合

来临的星期天就要考试了。所以告诉自己无论如何，要在接下来的几天里，好好的温习课业。

但不知这么的，就是定不下心来。。。

为什么？

是天气太闷热了吗?

是被心事所困扰吗?

还是被其它事物诱惑呢?

反复思考后，我忽然领悟到 “我中毒了!!”

中什么毒？呵呵。。。别担心，这可不用吃药，时间就是最好的解药。

前些日子，除了忙功课和到国外走了走，我的生活几乎都环绕在 Agape FRC。

演出告一段落后，难免不知觉会感到有些许的空虚。

就如生命中必有起起落落，失去了难免会失落。尤其是曾经拥有过，我们才会有害怕失去的空虚感。很想紧紧地抓着这份成就感，保留其中的体会，继续在这七彩缤纷的人生旅途中茁壮成长。

加油!

属灵的功课

卫理公会大巴窑堂 “爱家倍” 建堂筹款音乐会终于在上星期六圆满落幕了。

觉得非常开心，毕竟放下了心头的一块大石。

还记得当初主席在召集人马筹备音乐会时，大伙都带着一颗充满着期待和爱神的心定下了筹款目标。靠着神的恩典，我们不但超越了目标，一切的筹备工作，如video 和布景，都如期完成。

这份齐心向着标杆直跑的精神是非笔墨能形容的。

在这次事奉中，我学习到两项属灵功课。

第一…我愿本以为在演出当天，我只需要扮演一个跑腿的角色。没想到, 就在演出的一个星期前, 主席给了我舞台经理stage manager的重任, or what I deem as the cue master for the show =)

当下的我还真的有些不知所措, 但心中我仿佛听见一个微弱的声音, 问我说: “你准备好了吗? 如果是的,就勇敢踏出那一步吧!” 就这样,我挑起了这次的任务。

This reminds me of the scripture- As they ministered to the Lord and fasted, the Holy Spirit said, “Now separate to Me Barnabas and Saul for the work.” —Acts 13:2
Paul and Barnabas were among a number of people getting themselves ready spiritually for whatever God might ask them to do, or wherever He might send them. When the Holy Spirit said, “Separate to Me Barnabas and Saul for the work” (v.2), they were all set for the journey.

-- We must be prepared for what God wants us to do. When the Spirit says, “Go,” we must be ready to go wherever and whenever He chooses to use us.

第二… 因为经费不足的关系, 我们只能在演出地点有一次的总彩排。

因此, 我们没有足够的时间处理灯光和音响的安排。

更糟的是, 演出当天, 我们也没有足够的时间 to do sound and lighting checks, 一切都拖到 6.30pm 才结束, 而观众就要在十五分钟后入席了。

那时的我好慌呀..我还没吃晚餐,还没换衣,也还没换鞋啊!

哎哟威啊~~~

但虽如此,靠着祷告与神的恩典,演出不但顺利开始,其中担心会出错的地方都一一迎刃而解。感谢主! 在主里,凡事都能做!!

希望自己能永记这次的经验,勇敢面对未来的挑战,将一切荣耀都归于神! Amen.

出去走走

前几天到了东海岸去了去，不是去看俊男或美女，而是被我老妹拉去骑脚车。起初我拖着懒惰的身躯出门，但到达目的地之后，却又有了截然不同的体验。记得那天的天气晴朗，微热的太阳侧射在皮肤上，和阵阵的微风打在脸上的感觉好舒服。真希望时间能够顿时停留在那一刻。好久没有抽时间接近大自然或到海边去散散心了。我很喜欢海洋，喜欢那辽阔无际的大海，似乎与那蓝蓝的天连接在一起，给人一种希望无尽头和向往自由的感觉。每当我看到太阳从海岸一头升起时，我总庆幸自己能够亲眼目睹新的一天的诞生，也代表着新事物的诞生，是上帝给与你我的机会，再次把爱带到这城市。

The Air I Breathe

Recently have been reading this book titled “The Air I Breathe” by Louie Giglio, which seeks to define the concept of ‘worship’ in our lives. One chapter on ‘Why Worship Matters’ caught my attention. Many a times when I talk about the topic of worship, people tend to think along the line of Christians worshipping in church on Sundays.

What does the word mean to you? I particularly like this part in the chapter…

…whatever you worship, you become.
You can worship whatever you want, but there’ll always be a last twist to the story: Whatever you worship, you become obsessed with. Whatever you become obsessed with, you imitate. And whatever you imitate, you become.
In other words, what you value most will ultimately determine who you are. If you worship money, you’ll become greedy at the core of your heart. If you worship some sinful habit, that same sin will grip your soul and poison your character to death…..

Put it simply, we become what we worship. If you do not like who you are becoming, it’s probably time to take stock of things in your life. Whatever that sits at the bottom of heart will probably be the best gauge for you. I’ve been blessed with opportunities to reflect on my life and make some changes, often uncomfortable. Nothing in this world adapts better to new changes or surroundings than you and me. What’s stopping you?

Happy!!!

My lecturer for the module on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy flew in for 5 consecutive days of classes last Thursday. It was a wonderful experience, especially the debate on how CBT is more directive as compared to other counselling approaches, and that most therapists feel that the counselling process should be one in which clients take the initiative for change, rather than just to follow instructions from the therapist. Seems to me to that it’s gonna be difficult drawing a conclusion on that.

I’ve received my results for my last assignment and the song presentation last week. Got a distinction for the assignment and 93.80% for song presentation. HAPPY! Thank God for His grace and guidance all this while, giving me the strength and wisdom to persevere despite my health condition. Also gotta thank 2 of my friends, Hwee Mian for loaning me her camcorder, and Sharon, who has offered to be my volunteer client at the last minute. Thanks for trusting me and allowing me to record the counselling process, and of course, holding on to the ‘zoom in’ button. Thanks a million!

$300plus flew out of my pocket for the Worship Dynamics program. Looking forward to having more fun and pick up new singing techniques, and to explore the song that lies deep within each and everyone of us, an overflow of the heart that’s waiting to be birthed. Wohoo!

Need to sleep early tonight, super tired *yawnz

Song Presentation

The voice worship program that I took up 9 weeks ago is coming to an end soon. Yesterday was the presentation of a worship song of our choice. It was a pretty stressful moment as we have to sing in front of the class. I chose the song “Hear Our Praises” and shared with the class on the reason behind my choice. The sharing brought back memories of what took place ever since I left my last employment. I can tell you that the choice made was timely, and that God was with me every single decision that I’ve made. I am now not only more light-hearted, I can also better appreciate things and relationships, and Praise the Lord with my voice more confidently than ever!

Angels

Throughout my life, I’ve been blessed with angels to guide or help me become who I am today. Yesterday was a special day for 2 angels in my life, Cynthia jie and Moses kor. It is their first wedding anniversary. I’ve known them for close to a decade now. I recall the first time I spoke to them was at a TPCMC YAM gathering right after I completed my studies in Australia. I was actively involved in YAM’s work and was part of the exco. However, ever since I started working, I spent lesser and lesser time in church and slowly drifted away from them. Thank God for His Grace, I was not left behind and forgotten. Not only did He continue to be with me every single step I took, He also sent an angel who was constantly looking out for me...

Jie, thank you for not forgetting your mui, always sending me little notes and reminders when you can to this little lost lamb. Thank you for being who you are, for crying with me, for being a spiritual leader for me, teaching me to be patient at all times, reminding me to be strong and not give up hope. Thank you for sharing your heart with me and most importantly, for keeping me in your prayers. Words can never express how grateful I am for someone like you.

May your anniversary be a special time for you filled with cherished moments. Pray that God’s blessings will continue to fill your lives with an abundance of love and happiness always. Happy Anniversary kor and jie! :-)

A Powerful Instrument

My mum’s friendly flu bug paid me a visit last week. I came down with fever and had to take 9 different types of medication at one go, which is causing some strain on my liver, which explains for my inability to stay awake for many hours and was walking around like a zombie, just that I wasn’t literally hoping around... haha!
Thanks to all my friends and my cell group for all your prayers, I’m recovering well from my conditions and I’ll soon be commencing on my next course of medication, something that I’m certainly not looking forward to at all.

Despite all that, I was grateful that I could still attend my voice worship program, singing with my quacky voice. The lessons provided an avenue for me to draw closer to God and learn to worship Him with an open heart. Our voice is a very powerful instrument. Unlike other musical instruments that are man-made, this is the only one that is God has made.
More importantly, it took the focus off my health conditions to Him, reminding me that I need to stay strong in such circumstance. I’m blessed to have the opportunity to attend the program and a wonderful voice to express my emotions freely. Praise the Lord!

A Test of Patience

I have not been well for the past 2 weeks due to relapse of my condition. I get tired very easily and I have to take quite a number of pills to keep my condition under control. Despite that, there has been little improvements, all I remember is my doctor telling me not to worry. Oh well, it’s often easy to tell others not to worry, especially if you are not the one who’s suffering from the condition. Nonetheless, I was able to take it pretty positively. Someone told me this before “if you have not encountered such, you would not be able to see or look at things from a different perspective and treasure what you have.” I had 2 minor ops over the past 2 years and recalled myself waking up from anesthesia fighting to get oxygen into my lungs. It was a very frightening experience, one that I’d definitely not forget. It was through this that I realized that life is indeed very fragile, anything can happen and take you away the next second. If given a choice, I would never want to go through this again.

This is a long and trying test for me, both physically and mentally. Whatever the outcome may be, I know that I have to be patient. I will stay strong and continue to do what it takes to be a blessing to those in my life ;-)

家人与朋友

几天前刚过了生日，心中不禁有些许的感慨，但也充满着感激. 感慨地是自己在年龄上又增加了一岁,白头发也多加了几根...哈哈! 往好处想,自己在过去的一年当中获得的还真不少. 例如拥有一份深居意义的工作,身边那些可爱和同甘共苦的同事们,更可贵的是一个常常都支持和鼓励我的大老板 – 我衷心地感谢他们在我生命中留下了刻骨铭心的脚印.

在面对生活中的危机时,我深深地体会到朋友与亲人在我生命中所扮演的脚色有多么重要.我真的很感激上帝赐给我这份恩典,让我拥有许多知心的朋友.当我在生日当天收到他们的简讯时,心里有说不出的感动.

你身边有哪些朋友值得你去珍惜吗?你是否曾经把他们当成理所当然? 这问题的答案就只有你我心里最明白... ;-)

重新出发

2008 年对我来说是个苦乐参半的一年。或许身边的朋友会说苦的部分会占较多, 但也正是如此,我觉得自己比起以往更加坚强与乐观。回想自己天天过的不快乐, 在生理和心理上也平平承受着种种的打击, 我有一度觉得自己迟早会崩溃。感谢上帝的带领与眷顾, 我这只迷失的小羊重新得到生命, 找到了盼望和人生意义。

我放下了过去，重新出发。不忘了时时刻刻带着一颗宽容和喜乐的心，充满着感激地面对我这“ 洁” 然不同的生命。

Have been wanting to start a blog of my own, more of a journal to document my feelings and things I'm grateful for. This marks the start of me counting my blessings. May those who has a chance to read my entry be encouraged when you meet similar situations. God bless!